It’s a funny thing but I can bang on about the things around me all day. I can confidently write them here or tell people in person. I can joke about myself 24/7. I love being the centre of attention – I absolutely do.
When it comes to work I know what I am doing and when I don’t I can usually figure out who to ask. I know I’m pretty good at what I do and can happily demonstrate while I am doing it and prove it to my peers.
As soon as I have to talk specifically about myself in a serious way and promote myself to people above – I
I’ve tried writing bios about me and hate it. I tried writing a CV and really struggled. If writing positively about myself is bad then boasting about myself seriously in person is even worse.
Take job interviews, for example.
No matter how confident I may be about my ability to fit a role, as soon as someone sits there looking at me and says “Tell me about you” I just fall apart.
The problem is that I can’t joke about me. I can’t hide my self-doubt and fears behind a wall of defensive one-liners. I have to be serious.
I really struggle to do that.
I also struggle with the whole waffling thing. Saying the right buzz words or lines that make out you are something better than you are.
Take my most recent interview, for example – just the other day.
I am a telecoms engineer and without boring you with detail I have specialised in three areas during my time in the industry, these specialisms we call voice, transmission and data (trust me when I say you don’t want me to explain that any further).
Now, this is pretty good. Often people will only work in one of those fields but I’ve managed to get to a fairly acceptable level in all three. Out of those fields I have spent most of my time and generally prefer transmission but mixed heavily with voice. And I have to say I am more than happy working in those two areas especially.
Fair enough – you might think.
So my most recent interview was for a job that is specifically voice related rather than the other two and I was asked “So what do you think you are strongest at – voice, data or transmission?” I immediately answered transmission, because it’s true, and then just as immediately kicked myself.
I was there for a voice job.
It’s not bloody rocket science! The answer was VOICE!!
But I just couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t say the thing they wanted to hear because it just isn’t true.
I’m pretty useless.
And now I wait. Wait to see if honesty stands for anything in the world of job hunting, or if it’s all about the waffle. I do know one thing – I’d be bloody good in that role. Shame I couldn’t say that at the time.